This past week, I was able to at least sleep for 4 hours a day (/night, depending on how you view time). Working at 4:30am was a challenge. This was also the first week I experimented car2go. Their concept is good but when you realize there are no cars in your area at 4 in the morning, your heart just breaks into pieces.

On top of the lack of sleep and the lack of reliable transportation to work, I've been struggling to make progress on my project for my UX class. I haven't been able to deliver anything for the class other than fiddling with a few wireframes. Even so, I was going back and forth with wireframing. I would add a button, delete the button and then go back to do it again. I remember when I first graduated from college, I have been really on top of the game in terms of scouting articles that shared secrets on productivity and whatnot. But guess what, none of them were able to make their way into my brain and yet again, I found myself struggling to stay on top of almost everything, other than work.

This past week, I was also able to let that inner foodie out.

This past week, I've hit the all time of low of productivity.

So why don't I take this opportunity to actually set some goals for myself. I've been looking at graphic design internships and even thinking of going back to school. I basically have two options and eventually I would have to decide on one of them. Don't you wish certain things could happen simultaneously? That concept of mutually exclusive kind of just shuts out all the other potential opportunities. I am really struggling to decide between two, highly contrasting career paths. I'm rather reluctant to take another chance on the humanities. However, my career goal has always been about looking for a position that allows me to harmonize my two greatest passions - policy work and graphic design. That was also the reason why I wanted to get my foot into the doors of UX.

UX requires a lot of observation and analysis. It's all about the user. No joke. It's all about finding solutions to solve their pain points and hopefully to not compromise the aesthetics of the end product. I think policy work is almost similar in nature. It's also about taking into consideration the various interests of stakeholders (in this case, politicians, the average joe, and me and so on).

So after rambling on and on about nothing, here's what I am struggling with. Do I want to go back to school for public policy or do I want to step into the human-centered design arena? A somewhat more minor question, should I spend more money on tuition to attend grad school or would a graphic design program at a community college suffice?

Oh, the thoughts that rush through your brain at 12am are always the best ones. At least I know I am going to be dreaming about food while listening to Kendrick Lamar on my record player while contemplating the deepest thoughts of today.

Ramen, Biscuits, Sushi, and Bagels.