About a week ago, I took a trip down the scenic Pacific Coast Highway. I usually embark on these road trips on my own so I never get to go too far. My main pit stop would be Cannon Beach, and I've almost lost count of how many times I have been down there.

It was a weekend trip so I didn't actually get to see much. Turns out there's way more to see than I anticipated. If I decided to make a stop at every location, it'd probably become a week-long road trip. Nonetheless, I had a great time exploring the coast. My favorite spot was definitely Cape Perpetua. Even so, I enjoyed sort of driving aimlessly. It felt really good that I didn't have to worry about a thing on the first couple days of the trip. On Sunday, it was when it really hit me that I was going to have to go back to reality and confront some fears.

Going on these trips make realize how eager I am to live a much simpler life. Things have been difficult for a long time because I've never been able to find a field or focus that I truly wanted to engage in.

A while ago, I stumbled upon someone's blog. It was truly random so unfortunately I no longer have a link to it. Lesson: I should be bookmarking more of these inspirational articles or at least articles written by people who I can more or less relate to. When people get those 'Aha!' moments, I tend to myself nodding my head like crazy and saying 'wow, I never knew there was someone else out there so relatable". Long story short, I stumbled upon this hilariously insightful talk by Emilie Wapnick. I find myself resonating with a lot of examples and concepts she mentioned in her TED talk. She came up with the term multipotentialites and from the get go, I just clicked with the term. Growing up, I always jump into projects, whatever they might be, and get really excited for a little bit and then I'm equally excited to move onto something else.

It's sometimes hard to explain that concept to people. Certain people would think that I give up very easily. Some people might think I don't have the will power to stay in one thing for too long. Whatever they call it. For me, I find interests in a lot of things. That's not necessarily a good thing because I'm supposed to clock in at least 1000 hours in order to be an expert on something. The only thing I can relate to that was playing the piano and diving into graphic design. Ever since graduating from college, and getting out of that insulated/institutional environment, finding time to work on my side projects and learning new skills have been hard. I have had a lot of regrets coming into the new year (aka 2018). I do try to leave them behind and set eyes on the future but some odd reason, they always keep coming back.

In the meantime, just to update y'all. I haven't given up yet and here is a link to my Github repo to track my progress on migrating this blog to Gatsby. It shouldn't be taking that much time but since I am a newbie learning React and still figuring out how it really works, I am taking baby steps to learn Gatsby.

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