I think I might be finding the pleasure in writing again. Except, I don't really have anything substantive to write about. 

Lately, I have been trying to read more. Reading more simply means educating myself on a wider array of things. Perhaps I have been drowning myself in too much programming. But perhaps I also haven't been spending too much time on programming (practicing JavaScript or Angular per se). I walked into the Amazon Bookstore, sad that I didn't choose to walk into a Barnes and Noble. It was a treat back in the day whenever I went on road trips with my family. My father always wanted to stop by a Barnes and Noble. As a rebellious, I couldn't care much about books. Even when I did, the first section I headed to was the Young Adult Fiction section. Not that reading those books didn't educate me. It strengthened my English-speaking skills perhaps, but it didn't provide the substantive knowledge I needed under my belt to really submerge in the right kind of knowledge. Then again, what is right and what is wrong? Life is a constant battle of finding a good balance between things and trying to understand the different perspectives.

I recently bought this book Moonwalking with Einstein: The Art and Science of Remembering Everything because I read a Medium article. And throughout my life, I never really struggled with memorizing. The only thing that hindered me from remembering is the fact that I did not want to remember. Take, for example, studying for an exam (those IB mock exams were the most intense ever in my life. No, perhaps the SATs were the hardest tests I have ever taken). For me, it was a chore. I simply wasn't interested in that. But then again, in order to pursue a higher education, I probably should've studied more instead of procrastinating on making graphics for nobody but myself. Nonetheless, designing and being creative were things I wanted to do and I procrastinated through those means because I still believe those were the true passions I have (had). Note: I haven't actually started the book.

Anyway, my point is. When it came to programming, I feel like I was forgetting every single concept I learned in class. I had immense difficulty trying to remember the details of code. I suppose I was learning it the wrong way. It was either I didn't clock in enough hours to practice, or because I wasn't able to visualize the concepts in my brain and that I simply couldn't reapply the concepts I have already supposedly to learn.

“To the extent that experience is the sum of our memories and wisdom the sum of experience, having a better memory would mean knowing not only more about the world, but also more about myself.” - Joshua Foer

Anyhow, I really need to get my job search going. The more I procrastinate, the more I dwell on my current situation. I am excited about taking on more freelance projects but at the same time, I am basically working three jobs. At present, time management deems to be the most important thing ever.